Stephy’s Journal

"I feel a sense of communion with the spirits and those who died and those who survived to bear witness. I have never felt human," by Oprah Winfrey.

Professor Elie Wiesel is a Holocaust survivor. This was one of Oprah’s best show ever. Professor Wiesel tells his story on how he survived from the Nazis. It was so touching and I can feel every emotion as he and Oprah Winfrey walks in Auschwitz where most of the Jews are treated as the most lowly creature, burning them alive, some of them are tortured, just like in the movie "Schindler’s List".

Here’s a brief description about him that I got in the Internet(http://www.ushmm.org/museum/exhibit/focus/wiesel/):

Holocaust survivor Elie Wiesel, champion of human rights and advocate for awareness of past and potential acts of genocide, received the Nobel Peace Prize in 1996. On the atrocities in Sudan, Wiesel asked in July 2004 "How can a citizen of a free country not pay attention? How can anyone, anywhere not feel outraged? How can a person, whether religious or secular, not be moved by compassion? And above all, how can anyone who remembers remain silent?" He continues to speak out. In April 2006, Wiesel urged a rally of tens of thousands on the National Mall to call for an end to genocide in Darfur: "Silence helps the killer, never his victims."

These are the fragments of my diary. I wanted to write it in my blog for I might lose this diary. Kapag dumating ang pagka-topak ko ay baka maitapon ko pa ito.Saka nagsusulat ako ng diary kapag masam ang loob ko, wala na akong makausap tungkol sa mga problema ko, feeling ko ako wala akong kakampi, parang its me against the world, sobrang saya ko, in-luv ako, basta nagsusulat ako kapag ako ay puno ng emosyon. These is uncut at wla akong npakialam kung

mali

ang grammar ko nung ginawa ko ito.hehehehe….. Ayokong mawala kasi ung mismong emotion when I wrote this…..

January 21, 2005

            Hindi ko naman nagawa ang best ko. Nanakit ng kapwa at at ni hindi pa alam kung ano ang dahilan. Ang tanga ko di ba?

            Hayyyy… medyo masaya din naman ako khit papaano. Nandyan ang bestfriend ko ngayon na si Allan na nakikinig sa mga kwento ko. Medyo gumaan ang pakiramdam ko. Gusto kong gumawa ng mabuti pero ay lumalabas ay mali pa rin ako.

            Hindi nanaman ako nakapag-ipon. Marami kaming gastusin at hindi ako humihingi ng pera. Di ba mas mabuti iyon dahil ako ay nakakatulong kay Tatay. Ayokong mging pabigat at problema sa pamilya. Pero ano naman ang ngangyayari??? Pag-uwi ko ng bahay galing school at byahe ay napapagalitan ako sa aking gma maliit na pagkakaamali. Kaya medyo takot akong magkamali at ayoko talagang mapagalitan, eh sino ba ang gustong mapagalitan, di ba wala naman! Hindi na nga ako lumalabas sa kuwarto para walang masabing masama sa akin.

            May mga taong sobrang mapapel. Yung taong lagi na lang nagmamalinis at laging binubuhat ang sariling bangko.

            Ayoko sa taong nagdedesisiyon para sa iba. Yung tipong gusto kang pagawin ng mga bagay-bagay na hindi mo naman gusto at masama sa loob mo na gawin iyon kasi ayaw mo! Mabilis ako naiirita sa mga taong ganyan at kahit tahimik ako kunwari(minsan…) ay baka mabulyawan ko pa siya ng wala sa oras.

            Nakakakuha ako ng mataas na marka sa STS!!!!! Ang saya ko at gusto ko sana i-treat ang sarili ko for this small achievement… pero siguro sa sususnod na lang. Siguro bibili ako ng bag o di kaya’y cap na Nike!!!! Mag-aaral ako ng mabuti at masisikap. Sana tumaas ang grades ko this summer classes… Babawi na ako at mag-aaral na talaga ng mabuti….

            Ang mga biro ng mga kaklase ko sa kain ay OK lang. Mahaba naman ang pasensya ko at minsan tumatawa na lang. Hindi ko dinidibdib ang mga biro dahil biro nga lang iyon. Kahit twagin akong ”aja” o kahit ano pa ay OK lang.  Mas masaya ang second semeter ko. Puro tawanan at lokohan at mga matatalino ang gma kaklase ko!

            God guide me and give me strength to face each day. Help me to become brave and faithful to you. I love you God! Bless my father, Tita Selfa, Uncle Raffy,  my brother Patrick, and all to all the people that I cared for. I really miss achie Norie!!!!

January 22, 2005

Birthday ni Steph ngayon. Debut pa nga nya. Hindi ko nga alam kung appropriate etong damit na isisuot ko. Kulay blue (light blue) na medyo Chinese style at naka-skirt ako. Naka ballet flats ako. Hayyyy….. Hindi ko talaga alam kung tama ang ginagawa ko.

            Ngayon, ay nagkukulay ako ng para sa project naming sa Statistics, group project na ang concept ay mga  ‘preso’ o mga nasa kulungan at nag-file ng mga document s at profile ng mga detainee sa professor namin..

            I can’t wait to tell about this. Ang ganda ng nangyari sa debut ni Steph na katukayo ko. Na-miss ko ang lahat ng mga kaklase    

     A few days from now, we’re be having our summer classess. Since we are now juniors and will soon become seniors, we have a community duty. The adapted community are PAGRAI, Baybay Sapa(but someone told me that we’re not going there!), and the new community Liliw, Laguna. I’ve been to Liliw already for we had our Medical Mission there.  But only a few people are going to have their duties at Liliw, Laguna. There were rumors that only 50 or 80 of the sutdents fom more than 300 in our batch…. well I thinkit’s going to be tough for the professors to choose these selected students.

     Anyway, with these situation, I think they are going to prepare us to become a good PCI. I think it’s going to be tough but we can handle it. There are pleasures and sufferings of being a PCI to the 3rd year students. It’s fun to impart some knowledge to you fellow nursing colleagues who are younger then you or who are in the lower year. BUt it’s quite scary if you can’t handle the situation, you need to prepare for it.

     We’re going to wear our white uniforms at last! tThough we still wear the blue and white uniform, it still felt good that our hardships were at last given a reward. This simple white uniform meant a lot more to us. BUt it also meant that it’s going to be our last year as a college student.